Lessons learned from GKYM.
-Don't lose hope and always commit to God "again and again and again and again".
-When you set a goal, don't stop, keep doing it, God will work something through it.
GKYM was a Korean event, but above were the two things that stuck out to me.
It's been a month into new years and things are going to be a little different this year.
For the past couple of years, I've been putting a lot of expectations upon myself which at the end just discourage me even more. Normally, I have a certain motto that guides me throughout the year but this year, I didn't bother. I felt the need to do things a little differently, get away from the traditional Joan thing and just do what needs to be done to live a life pleasing to God and to really restore my worship. It's challenging, it's hard, but it's a lifestyle that not only brings joy to my own life, but may potentially impact those around me. 2009 was a pretty tough year, and that's not something that normally comes out of my mouth being the "happy go lucky Joan" people used to call me. It's been quite a roller coaster but I believe God has a reason for all of this. I'm sort of nervous and excited for this year, graduation, moving on into the "real" world, and just see what awaits for me in the coming months. But most of all, I just want to fall in love with God over and over and over again and not let Him go. I'm so tired of this world, I'm tired of people, I'm tired of a lot of things, but I pray for help. Again, my continuous prayer will be "God I need you, I don't know what to do".
End of 2009 was nice. I did a lot of not thinking and relaxing, watched a whole bunch of movies I've never watched, and spent it with nice people. Christmas was the first time I've ever went back to my real home. It was random, but a couple of close friends and my siblings went to Glen Cove and ate at the dining table we never use. Though we just ate left overs from the night before heated by my mom, it was nice because that's something I don't normally do. I miss my family, sometimes I wish I can spend more personal times with them. It's nice.
