Neon Lights

A couple of months ago, I asked that God would direct my life with big neon lights.

Prayer has been getting answered more and more. It's a little surreal.

I graduated with a marketing degree. I'm now a counseling major.
I work as an administrative assistant, soon to be designated school official.
My tasks currently entail various administrative duties,
soon I'll also be working alongside with international students and care for them.
I'm doing both what I'm gifted with and what I'm passionate about which is people.
And I'm being challenged with all of the above.
All of this is so unexpected, but praise God, he does listen to prayers.

To think about it, it was worth it going that dramatic emotional road block.
There are a lot of things that are causing me to struggle and trust God with.
It really bothers me, drags me down, sucks up all the life out of me;

more than my school work, church work, work work, social life and long days.

School work is getting quite overwhelming now a days.
I haven't had time to concentrate and focus on my studies.
I want to ace all my courses and learn everything to the best of my ability.
I want to and material is interesting. My time has become very limited.
Still learning good time management skills.
This will be a life long learning process.

I need to obtain my eight hours of sleep a night to function with optimal health.
I need to set time apart for homework to do well and be well versed in my studies.
I need to practice piano to be a better steward on the worship team.
I need to not be too busy to spend time with God and pray.
I want to spend more quality time with family, friends, and loved ones.
I want to do so many things, but first I must maintain balance with things that have been entrusted me.
God, thanks for the passion to learn and excel, teach me a balance.

Anyway, I had such a great day today again, and came home with not the greatest feeling.
God, I love you, I trust you, I need you, I want to understand.
I can't stand watching people hurt, unable to communicate, why am I there?
I'm still trying to grasp all of this, it's been too long, and it's only creating more brokenness and pain.
I don't know where to turn sometimes, but God you have a reason for this, I know you do.

"Not receiving an immediate answer to prayer is no reason to give up faith." —Julie Ackerman Link

"Not ours to know the reason why
Unanswered is our prayer,

But ours to wait for God’s own time
To lift the cross we bear." —Anon.
 
"Waiting for God is never a waste of time."

Thanks for making my mission clearer, God.