Counseling

There are sometimes I dread counseling clients because it feels like therapy is going no where but there are other times where counseling is so worth it and I feel so privileged to be part of the growth and transformation process. There are only a handful of clients in which I feel that with and it makes this internship and possibly any future counseling job God places me in, worth it.

Everyday I count down the hours of how many clients I have left to see before I give birth and I can't wait until this internship ends. I think about how tired I am every morning just to squeeze in a client before work and how exhausting it is to have to squeeze in clients after work hours just so that these hours can be accomplished. I think like this, well, because I want to graduate, I don't want to do this any longer where I'm splitting myself in five thousand different places and I'm just ready for the next season. Then there are many times where I am sitting in these early morning or late night counseling sessions and I think to myself, wow such a blessing, that God chose me to see these particular people. I am so privileged to have such sensitive and personal information shared with me that probably nobody will ever get to hear and I definitely don't take it lightly during the sessions. I get to share in a persons struggles from an unbiased view point and be able to ask the right guiding questions so that these people can live a healthier life. What a privilege and what a blessing to be part of their story. They get to reflect on what was discussed during the session and there is some sort of impact made in their life that they would freely want to come back again for another session.

I'm coming to an end in my graduate school career and was the experience worthwhile? Absolutely. But still, I am unsure if this is something I see myself doing for the rest of my life.

As of today, I have 32 face to face time hours left. That's not much but that's not enough for me to graduate in time yet. Part of me does blame it on those three snows days we've had because this could've all came to an end by now.

Great news, I passed the comps, the director of the program said I am able to attend the hooding ceremony and I'm still waiting approval to walk for commencement. Not only that, what I've requested for maternity leave has basically been approved and I'll be going on maternity leave the day I give birth and am only required to go into the office once a week but the other days I can work from home. I'll be paid hourly depending on how many hours I decide to work and initially I thought that it wasn't going to be a good thing but it's actually a great thing because if I decide I don't want to work one day, I won't have to, but I just won't get paid for it which is not a big deal at all. So all of this works out for my good and I'm so thankful to God for working it out this way. Today, my boss just surprised me with some news that I was not expecting... he said something about nominating me as "employee of the year" or something of that nature but didn't go into detail. There are many times I feel like I just don't deserve the favor that God gives but I'm definitely very grateful and appreciative for it.